Daydreaming at work...

Well, I haven't felt very much like myself lately. How do I know? Because I don't think I've jumped around and shrieked or clenched my teeth and made a statement that gets progressively louder and higher-pitched with each syllable in over a month. See... I'm really not myself... perhaps because nothing about the old Kim still remains. I don't live in the same place, or have the same friends, or have sisters (well I have sisters but they're so far away so it feels like I don't), or have the same pets, or go to school, or have the same silly job, or have anybody to be silly or have extreme amounts of fun with anymore. East Coast people aren't silly, at least I haven't found any that are. I feel so grown up living here and having a real job and wearing black all the time. And when I got married, growing up was the last thing I had in mind!! I just want to go back to the days where I didn't have strict working hours, or have to wear black every day, or pay bills, or fill out forms (you know for employment, health insurance, loans, etc.), or be "professional" whatever that means. I just want to watch Disney movies with my sisters ... or drink hot chocolate in front of the fireplace and talk and laugh for hours with Renee and Shauna... or dress up in black (ninja gear, not professional dress) and face paint and run around campus with the other Astor girls screaming "Hoo Hoo Ha" and throwing pinecones... or perform a decade-old-boy-band song with a drawn-on mustache... or have a bonfire at the Cherry's house and point my pinkies at the fire, to keep the smoke away of course, doesn't everybody know that? geez... I miss my old life.

But enough whining, I will just try to be more myself here in my new life.

Sooo... today I spent most of the day at work daydreaming about Disneyland. Why? Because Brandon and I bought our tickets home for Christmas yesterday and I specifically chose to take 2 days off work and fly out at night so that we could go to Disneyland with my family. We'll be on a plane to glorious California on Wednesday, December 19th. Our Disneyland passes are blocked out the week of Christmas until a few days after New Years, so in order to get into Disneyland, we have to go home a few days early, but it's WELL worth it. I love Disneyland almost as much as my husband, and Jesus. And the best part is we're going to Disneyland only a few days before Christmas, my other favorite thing in the whole wide world!!! I realize that last Christmas break I went to Disneyland too, but that doesn't make this year any less exciting. Can you believe it, Christmas and Disneyland combined into one event... can you even imagine something more magical than that??? I can't!!! People, I'M PUMPED!!!

A dream is a wish your heart makes

when you're fast asleep.

In dreams you can lose your heartaches

Whatever you wish for you keep.

Have faith in your dreams and someday,

a rainbow will come smiling through

No matter how your heart is grieving,

if you keep on believing...

The dream that you wish for

WILL

COME

TRUE!!

In case you were wondering I just wrote all that from memory and as I hum it, it reminds me of my wedding (our pianist played it while our grandparents were being seated) which brings even more wonderful memories and thoughts to mind. Anyways, I'm super duper excited for Christmas and Disneyland and family and old friends and the West Coast and I can hardly wait for it all to come.